the long slow goodbye part three

the past weekend has been long. time crawled by. by now i have met up with all of my close pals, and sent off a few others.

yet, time can't move any faster.

i am torn between elation and depression. happiness and excitement stems from the anticipation of new experiences and environments to come. sadness eats away at me when i think of the people and things that i can't take along and can't see when i'm gone.

the excitement is mind-blowing and at times i smile to myself. however, moments later, tears well up in my eyes, but i tell myself to be strong. it's safe to say, i haven't shed a single tear. this is all so tiring.

i just want this transition period to pass as quickly as possible, but i miss everything at home too much to want time to zoom by.

packing drains me emotionally too. as long as it's not completed, it's like a constant reminder that i'm leaving.

sigh.

michigan beckons.