reflections

phew... woohoo! sigh.

three expressions to describe the ambivalence that i felt when the ceremony was over today.

relief that the whole shabang was over. nothing got screwed up. no more dance practice. nothing for me to do on weekdays. i can do whatever i want, whenever i want. i'm FREE. time to start meeting up with pals before i fly.

jubilation. beside the fact that nothing much went wrong, the dance group did good! the initial nerves disappeared after the first chorus. i felt it was the best performance we ever did. it was an unnatural high, possinly to the point of delirium. i enjoyed myself. i don't care if anyone hated it, or didn't understand it. brothers and sisters of the dance group, we did good. no, we did great. thank y'all so much.

slight melancholy. that this will be the last time the entire bunch of scholars 2006 will be together. it's gonna be four years of mugging and roughing it out in the college environment. but if you think about it, whether we like it or otherwise, we're all gonna be together again in a very involuntary setting: work. so brace yourselves. the next four years will probably be the most fun-packed experience, and thereafter, it's work. blah. dang! haha.

honestly speaking, there was a little reluctance in the atmosphere when the human resource department told us that we had to perform and showcase our 'talents'. i felt it. by 'talent', they mean singing, playing music and dancing. so if you can't do either, you're probably 'talent'-less. which is a slightly ridiculous and totally flawed conjecture. because that would have meant that those who are on holiday or not present are narrow-minded nerds. ouch. >_< i would have preferred if they referred to it as an entertainment segment. but oh well, maybe next year.

truth be told, this has been the most fun i've had since JC days (don't even get me started about army. boo!). by this, i refer to the entire DSTA orientation experience, from grooming workshops to the tedious practice sessions for the talent showcase. and of course the friendships that sprouted and existing ones that further strengthened.

last but not the least, it's, oh man, the scandals and speculations! three involving boy-girl relationships (one of which probably holds some truth) and one involving some guy's sexuality (someone who speaks very frankly).

so yeah, what a brilliant experience. my photos will be up tomorrow. or in a few days i guess. i'm so tired right now. enjoy this, this and this in the meantime.